My Story: The Highs & Lows
stories of an Indigo Scout & parent of Indigo's ...
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Hello and welcome to my story. Here is a small part of my journey -the highs and the lows.
I share this information with you to offer support, and to demonstrate that even rocky roads are worth the trip.
I have walked many paths.
Some have led me away
from the Light to places of despair, feeling terribly sad and
alone,
and many more have led me into it, into the glorious, bliss-filled, wonder of it.
All these paths have
been vital ground work to enrich the work I have come here to
do,
for they are helping me
to gain a deeper understanding, a lack of
judgment,
and all encompassing Love and Compassion for myself and my own Divine Mission
A Little More About Me ...
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My Relationship With My Dad
How to get closer to my dad, who I just loved, but was also afraid of? I could sense so much going on inside of him,
but he was born into a time of ‘keep it all bottled up, ‘don’t rock the boat’, and ‘men are strong and DO NOT share their feelings
– ever’, which of course, made him appear remote and distant, and quite scary to me.
The stage was set.
I tried to please, tried to be ‘good’, to conform so I would be ‘normal’.
I felt so unlovable, so
abnormal.
Surely if I just tried harder I would be like everyone else!
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Who's Fault? Someone Had To Be To
Blame
Now, this story is no
different form many other stories, except it is mine. I tried and
tried to feel like
my dad loved me, but
instead, I always ended up feeling like a failure.
Why didn’t he do and say
the things I wanted him to??
Why couldn’t he just try harder??
Why did we fight and
argue??
What was I doing wrong????
I would feel SO much anger! and I seemed to feel EVERYTHING SO DEEPLY!
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Depression
Depression and anger became my ways ..
So many years, so much water under the bridge.
Things continued on this
course for a long time. I acted out, blamed a lot of people, events
and things.
I married, had children.
I became extremely busy.
I had lots of happy
times, experiences, moments. I loved being a mother to my
kids.
But I as a person, was not happy.
Slowly, bit by bit, I began to look at myself, to actuually consider myself as a person.
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Like Finding The Key
Acceptance of myself was
the key that unlocked my relationship with my dad, and as
this
had always been one of my main life-issues, it really was an amazing experience!
Bit by beautiful bit, discovery, by amazing discovery, I slowly came into the awareness of giving
more of what it is I want to have present in my life – The Law of Attraction
It was not an easy
journey to get to this point, and I have no easy
answers.
I only know that to more I accepted myself - as I was, for who I was - ... I just felt better!
The Letter
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One night, I wrote my dad a letter, telling him of all that he had taught me, both the big things
and little, like for
example, he was the one who taught me that his simple request for
help from me as a
child made me feel important and capable.
Not to say anything
about someone, if it’s not positive or affirming (still learning
that one!) and that using conditioner after
shampooing made my hair shine and feel so soft!
He taught me to love
animals, and that sometimes those animals will leave us and go Home
to Heaven and it's OK to mourn,
and it's also OK to move on.
Writing this letter was soothing, healing, and it served as a reminder of all he had helped me with and parented me through.
Here is a video I made
dedicated to my dad. I invite you to visit my YouTube
channel.
I
have made many other videos to inspire and assist you on your
journey.
Forgiveness
It bought so many memories to life, and it bought me so close to my dad in my heart and mind.
I cried, I laughed, I built new bridges between he and I within my heart and mind..
Recently, I was able to
look my dad in the eyes, and tell him how happy and honoured I feel
that he
was the one to help give me life.
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A truly magnificent moment for me, for us both. We held each other, we cried, we laughed …
Writing that letter was a lovely gentle way of helping myself to see all that I had become blinded to,
without guilt or blame.
I encourage you to write
your own letter, whether you can or do mail it or not is not
important.
It's the writing it that is
At Last. My Life Begins Makes Sense!
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It took me many years to learn, and to be set free by the knowledge that I am in fact an Indigo Scout
Indigo Scouts started
coming to the planet in greater numbers around 1940 in response to
the prayers being sent up for peace
on earth bought about by World War 1 (WW1 1914 - 1918 ) and then again during World War11 (WW2 1939-1945)
Never doubt the strength of your prayers
What Makes An Indigo An Indigo?
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Not everyone born during the 40's, 50's, and 60's is an Indigo Scout of course, but for those of us who are, or,
if you are now wondering if you may be, here is a list of traits common to Indigo's
There is just so much to
learn, understand, and be aware of about what it actually means to
be an Indigo
child or person , the
highly sensitive body and emotions of an Indigo and what Indigo’s
have
actually come here to
do.
There is simply no point
expecting an Indigo to learn, express, dress, feel the way everyone
else does,
we’re just not built that way.
If you have an Indigo
teen, they simply can not sit still and call a teacher Sir when
that very
teacher shows no respect
for their students for example. And don't expect to 'guilt' them
into ... anything,
it just isn't going to happen.
Indigo people are incredibly deep feelers! I can tell you it’s not an easy road to feel everything as if it were actually happening to you.
Indigo’s are also
extremely fiery natured, and can get very caught up in feelings of
anger and will
lash out for what may seem to be the smallest of reasons.
Indigo’s have a built in
lie detector (Indigo Scouts may or may not have access to this as
we learned
how to swallow our feelings and became desensitized)
Resources
There are many courses, interviews, and books written about Indigo’s, so read up if you feel you, or someone close to you, may be an Indigo
There is a weath of
knowledge, information, and experience out there, so Google Indigo
children (or people) ,
and use your own trustworthy sense of what is, and is not, correct for you.
I have learned quite a lot on my way.
About love, life, laughter, speaking from the heart, harsh words
and their effects on both myself and others,
heartache, suicide,
divorce, death, joy, and how to soothe a frightened
child,
even when that that
child is within me
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Reiki, An Energetic Awakening &
The Tools To Help Save My Dads Life
My father and step-mother introduced me to Reiki in 1992, generously gifting me with Reiki 1
What a discovery for me!
My Attunement was a very powerful
experience,
and opened me in ways yet I had yet to discover
This beautiful healing
energy would later save my fathers life; little do we know of the
far
reaching consequences of
the gifts we give
My sister, stepmother
and I administers Reiki to my father as he lay dying in a
hospital
bed after another heart attack.
I had never witnessed a person leaving this world before, and my heart broke as I sat by my fathers bedside.
What could we do?
Reiki!
We each placed our hands on him... the energy flow was amazing!
It got so hot at one
point that I had to remove one of my hands to feel some
relief
from the powerful energies dad was drawing in via my hands.
We had been told that my
dad would not be moved to a larger hospital 2 hours away
unless
there was no other option, as moving him may worsen his condition. He was very weak, and they had 'lost' him twice
in the ambulance on the
way to hospital from his rural home.
My heart sank when we were told that the Doctors felt it necessary to move him to Brisbane,
and that it would have to be by ambulance as a helicopter would actually take as long to arrange,
and time was of the essence.
We sat with him for as
long as we could before he was to be transferred.
It was the longest drive of my life.
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Nothing Could Have Prepared Me
I was too scared to ring
the hospital to inquire after my dad - I just didn't want to hear
the news that he
had not survived to trip over the phone.
Arriving at the
hospital, walking in was a terrible experience
..
but nothing could have prepared me for what I saw when I entered the cardiac unit.
There, before me, was my dad, sitting up, chatting with the nurses, asking for a cup of tea!
That was the day that
changes my life forever. The day I knew, with out a doubt, that
miracles do exist, right here,
on earth, for me - for my family, for us all.
Parenting Indigo's
I have 3 children,
teachers of their mother all.
My two girls are Indigo's, and can smell a lie at 1000 paces
To raise these
Indigo's was
an honour and an extreme irritant at once, with me not knowing what
to do to make them
'behave' and do as they
were told! And they won't respond to guilt
tactics
The lament of parents everywhere I know ...
Raising Indigo's is an incredible journey into madness, or sanity; depending on how you decide to parent.
Remember; You signed up for it before you incarnated.
You DO have what it takes. Dig deep. Don't stop. Go out on a limb for them. Indigo's are a gift to the
world and so are you.
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On a personal note, I
did discover, after many years, to honour and teach my Indigo's
about their built-in fire and
encouraged them to channel it instead of trying to put it out.
Life got a whole lot better for us all, let me tell you!
Another vital thing you need to understand about Indigo's is their sensitivity to food colouring and additives!
They are often mis-diagnosed with ADD and ADHD
Indigo's are here to
break down old systems like "do it because I'm the boss and I say
so", "don't ask questions, just do it!"
and "it's the way things are done, so don't try to rock the boat." They are here to rock the boat.
*not actual photos of my kids.
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Unfair behaviour never
goes unnoticed by an Indigo!
Harsh tones, words and
actions will never get your messages across to an Indigo,
and on top of that, you simply
can not make an Indigo do what they think i or feel is unfair!
It stands to reason when
you consider this very important fact:
If we can make and
Indigo tow the party line, or even clean their rooms (it's
my room, I should be able to have it how I like
it!),
how will they ever dismantle unfair, corrupt or rigid systems in Government, schools etc?
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My son has been one of my greatest teachers in life.
His ability to connect
and relate to people of all ages, from any walk of life, his
amazing gift of explaining the seemingly
unexplainable,his love for animals and his willingness to go to bat for them, have all stopped
me in my tracks in delight, awe and wonder... Namaste TJ
I like, respect, adore,
treasure them all and am blessed by their presence in my life,
these keepers of my motherhood,
these splendid human beings!
Me, March 2010
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Cert Reiki 1 1992
Cert Angel Intuitive 2003
Cert Angel Intuitive Advanced Training 2006
Cert ThetaHealing 2009
Founder & Exceutive Producer The Angel Heart Radio
Network® (Founded 2010)